And I say, it's time to post another blog.
For those of who may not know me very well, I appreciate the times you stick out and read what I have to say. I hope my "journaling" can be a time of encouragement, or hope or something that has a positive light in your life.
For me, it's a time to let the real Alyssa out. I know life has its ups and downs, and that life can sometimes be a struggle. I think it's safe to say, we all face struggles every single day. Mine are more evident some days than others, but they are always there. Struggles don't just go away, as much as I would like them too. They are also usually something we have been facing for what may seem likes years beyond years, or they actually are; such as mine.
What I am dealing with lately, a few people know. I am so fortunate to have those people to talk to, even if I don't always feel as if I can share (when I know I really can!). Eh and thus the blogging comes handy. I have been blessed here at Western with people who are willing to listen to what I feel like is either complaining or negativeness. In reality things can't be bottled up! I heard on Klove not too long ago that for a person to be happy, you must have friends. I am improvising now with what was actually said since I can't remember exact words. It goes like this. A person who doesn't have close friends live as long as a person who has smoked for 15 years. So no friendship= not a lot of years to live. How crazy! I strive to have friends. I strive to make people feel important. It may not happen everyday, but I do not like when people feel left out. I mean I don't like feeling left out. There are some things I could work out to make people feel involved and special. I think what it takes is inviting someone to do something (cough cough, that's how I feel and what I need a lot of the time).
Little bit of a scatter brain, but oh well. I am the one writing, so I can write what I want. Isn't that how it works? Oh also, I should probably go through and reread before I ever post, but I don't. So if my grammar is wrong, that is why. Any who....
God is sooooo good. In my times of doubt or of being impatience or stress through numerous things, I am reminded of His goodness and how he provides. I have been blessed with two earthly brothers from my parents. Who I love dearly and couldn't imagine life without them. Hunter who is 14 will call me here and there and tell me some about what is going on. Most importantly I am so proud of who he is becoming. Before he didn't know how to make friends, but since joining sports he has so many friends and in general is happier! Noticing a trend. Cory, my twin. A guy who I miss and wish could call me! They are both so great, and growing up.
This leads into the brothers I have here at Western. I really don't personally know many of the men at Wednesday Bible Study as well as I might want. But I am thankful that they are here. Leading as great examples of who I and the rest of the women should be waiting for. We deserve nothing but the best in a man and these men prove that day after day. Friday was a night dedicated to the Women of Bible study! Night of Honor. And what a night it was. Escorted to our dinner table, while music was being played. A little bit of a show, and encouragement from the men. I even got to watch all the women from afar taking photos together to document the great time we all were having. It was so amazing to be in the presence of God in this way. A night to dress up, feel pretty and special. We all need one of those every once in a while! What stuck out to me the most that night the anonymous letter we all were given by a brother in Christ. My first reaction when I was hearing about these letters that were at our left side on the dinner table was, "Who would have wrote me a letter, since I barely know any of the guys." Once again, swept off my feet. God knows how to surprise me and let me know that there are people watching and paying attention. Now thinking about it, of course there are men I know at Western. YOUNG LIFE! I dedicate a night every week to hanging out with some amazing leaders who are invested in high school students lives. What a blessing that is in itself! As I start reading this letter it hits me, the man who wrote this letter sees me every week. Sometimes not at my best I must add. As I read and take in the details of this letter I start to tear up. Receiving a letter that is personal and hits home it a good letter! The content was stuff I talk to people about, but bringing it forth is a new way to see things. It was nice to know that people SEE ME! From afar we are all watching; hopefully not judging, but realizing what people are doing. It is nice to hear that what we do in life is making a difference. I am not 100% sure who wrote that letter to me, but I want you to know that I truly appreciated the kind things you had to say. There really aren't many words to describe how I felt when I read it and how I have felt after I've read it.
The things I do in life I don't except recognition. But I will say it is nice to be recognized. I have been stressed lately. I haven't had enough time to think about the stress because of the time I spend doing other things that have to get done. While everyone else was worshipping at bible study tonight, I sat back and started praying. Praying for people in my life, but also the things going on in my life. Then all of a sudden a prayer was answered! It wasn't "big" but it was big enough for me! I am thankful to receive the prayer I personally got from a couple awesome people tonight. They were both spot on with how I was feeling. Now it is time to let God do His work, and for me to pay attention and abide by what He asks of me.
Tomorrow is a new day. An early day where I get to spend time with high school girls, talk about life and build relationships.
It is also important to remember that God provides in so many amazing mysterious ways! this week he has provided comfort when i least expected it!
Praise Jesus for being Jesus! Scott at bible study said tonight, "Jesus+Nothing=Everything!" We have been given everything we ever need! We have done nothing to receive it, but it is still there. By the grace and love through Jesus!
Thanks for reading my long thoughts. I hope you all have an encouraged rest of your week and weekend.
God Bless
Miss Lyss ;)
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