Hi friends!*Disclaimer: I share things of faith and of who I am. Didn't hold a lot back. Once again more like a journal entry, but I don't have anything to hide!* I am no longer super congested! After a long week and spending lots of with kinders I finally realized that kids have germs. Regardless of how much you try to get them to wash their hands they still spread germs, thus I was sick for a week. Miserable time, and I don't remember much content that was taught in any of my classes. But I am feeling better and embracing the spring allergy season!
I've had a lot on my mind lately. And along with a lot on my mind I have been busy like normal. You know what though, I embrace it. I wish I could make more time for people. I've been doing the norm lately, going to school, working, young life, Wednesday Night Bible Study, and whatever I can cram into my days. I am starting to feel the long days and the little time I have for other things. My goal as it should be is striving to focus on the present while being led by God in what He has planned for me. My days don't go perfect, my life doesn't go perfect. That is what I love about life. I love that regardless of how I feel or what I do, life is there and so many opportunities come from each day.
Let's start with what went on last week and with my heart. I don't want to leave anything out, but I've gotta start with Saturday night. Saturday the women of bible study put on a evening called night of respect for the men of bible study. I time for the women to serve the men and let them know how much we appreciate them and cherish their friendship. Personally I only know a few of the men. Regardless I love them all like my brothers. The courage and the dedication they have to God is beyond what I have experienced. I am thankful that I get to know so many guys by name and was able to make them feel as special as they all are and have laughs with them. It's truly something special to come together with young adults my age, and serve the Lord and serve each other. To see the love one another has for each other and what we would do for each other. I pray that over this time I have at Western that I could build stronger relationships, and that the names of people I know would grow. Such a time to remember and never forget, and I am looking forward to night of honor! Guys and gals, you all rock!
Up until I'd say Monday I was getting over my sickness. By the grace of God He made me healthy and able to the things I need to do. God lately has really been showing me, that by trusting in Him I have nothing to worry about. And if you know me that is big, because sadly to say I am a worrier. Wish I wasn't, but slowly I am working it. Baby steps of course! With God's love, trust and mercy unimaginable things can happen. I'm human! I struggle! Like everyone else, we all have a story. Mine might be different than yours. I face things everyday, am reminded of things everyday. Things I want to change. Not things I regret, but things that make me not feel as who I am meant to be. I don't like that feeling. And that is something I am willing to work on! With God's help and prayer I am working hard to fix some of the things.
I sit here, listening to Spotify like I always do at my computer.And this song with these lyrics come on, "He's faithful to the end, He's faithful to my heart." So many songs have been speaking to me. I want to obey Him, listen to His will. I have a lot of growing to do. I have a lot more mistakes to make. God is going to bring me through the trials I face. I am never alone. When I feel alone and on the outside of friends, He is there holding my hand. He doesn't want us to feel alone. With that said, I am thankful for Wed Bible Study. I have made so many friends through there, and don't know where I would be without that place. I live in a town, where when I came here I knew no one. I wanted a change. I am ready for another change! I know my change is a change of heart here in Monmouth. To be vulnerable, and willing to have God open my heart to things I may not feel ready for. "Fill me up God."
Wrapping this up, I have been thinking about my birthday. Which is in two weeks. I don't know when I'll stop counting down the days till my birthday, but I guess not yet! Bring on 23! I have been living on my own, supporting myself for almost four years. That is along time to me, while being in school and trying to work and give time to other things. With all that said, I want to be a teacher. In college, and the education major, you are expected to pay literally, hundreds of dollars out of your pocket. I am not one to ask for anything for my birthday. I would rather spend time with people I love. Someone's company is one of the most important things in my life. I have my fair share of wants of course. I also have needs that I pay more attention to.
I need to take a reading test for the third time to get further into my program really before I take any other tests. It is $85. And then I am going to Young Life camp as a leader this summer and thats $150. So if anyone was thinking of getting me anything, contributing in anyway to help me financially would be so appreciated. I am not expecting it of anyone, but I do like cards. And that I do expect ;)
Thanks for reading my life story. Peace out world for the night. Need to go collect myself and finish homework for the night!
Alyssa
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
Sunday, April 14, 2013
Joy
Looks as if I haven't really written since school started this term. Fair warning I am sick, so if sentences do not make sense or my spelling is wrong I blame NyQuil since that is in my system tonight.
Since I have been back from break school has taken off. I am taking 5 classes this term, and I know my history class is going to kick my butt. I find everything very interesting to learn, but some of the language is complete gibberish to me. Let's pray I can get through each two hour class M/W. Some days I just want to snooze. My other classes are turning out to be fun and more intriguing (well for the most part that is). In the next few months I will do science experiments, p.e. lesson plans, write some papers about social study issues, lots of random stuff about history and learn about special needs in the education system. I am ready to learn, let me tell ya!
Thinking about this term gets to me think about the one class I will be taking right after this term for a week. Then I start to think about living here this summer, which leads me to jobs and money. I need to take one day at a time. I have a lot of exciting things happening this term and this summer that I must not let consume my mind. My focus is the present, each day one day at a time is all I must do. If we live in a time of the future our minds will go crazy!
Back to some things that have recently been going on is that I am working in a kindergarten classroom. Every Tuesday and Thursday I am volunteering in a classroom with 20 adorable 5 and 6 year olds. They make me laugh every day and test my patience more than I thought could. There is one little boy in this class who I think every time I am in there asks if I have a kid at the school, and when I tell him no he asks if I have a baby in my tummy. I have jumped to the conclusion that I am sure he doesn't understand that since I am in school I can not have kids. Which is the truth for me. Sometime it will hit him that I am just helping in his classroom. I always have some sort of story about these kids. This last Thursday my little buddy Rylan noticed the pooh bear shirt and pin I was wearing and told me Spiderman is better. I had to disagree with him and tell him that Pooh Bear is better. He still didn't agree, so this "argument" went on all afternoon. At the end of the day I called him Mr. Pooh Bear and he said, "People don't call me Mr. Pooh Bear." He then called himself Mr. Pooh SpiderMan, cracked me up!
Oh I am sure I will have more to share from this buddy and many others. They brighten my day, and I look forward to working with them each week. More confirmation of how much I can't wait to be in a classroom.
Last weekend I was able to attend an amazing retreat with Wednesday Night Bible Study at Young Life's Breakaway camp in Gearhart, OR. I had such an amazing time. I still feel something missing, that I have been praying for off and on and something I could feel at the retreat, but I know when the time if right things will fall into place. God does amazing works in that way. It is important to remember that everything is in his timing. Not of my own. I can do nothing without him. At this retreat we sang worship songs, prayed together, hung out together, and played games together. Beach volleyball was a highlight in the game area because I had never played before. So much fun! Volleyball was never my "good" sport, as to why I did cross country, but so glad I did. But beach volleyball was something to be silly in! And after that we went to the beach. I missed the beach. I always miss the beach! Can't wait to visit a beach again! So many new friends and memories were made at this retreat! I am so happy God made it in my plan to go, and for everyone else who was there. God makes things happen for a reason, and for each individual to be there was to help us grow stronger and closer.
So many things in these last couple weeks I am thankful for!
Tonight I must close because I can tell my medicine is kicking in and I should sleep!
Oh the wonders sleep can do! Everyone make sure to get enough sleep in their regular sleeping routine. It is important! :)
Good night friends
OH and pray for a quick recovery! Thanks :D
Alyssa
Since I have been back from break school has taken off. I am taking 5 classes this term, and I know my history class is going to kick my butt. I find everything very interesting to learn, but some of the language is complete gibberish to me. Let's pray I can get through each two hour class M/W. Some days I just want to snooze. My other classes are turning out to be fun and more intriguing (well for the most part that is). In the next few months I will do science experiments, p.e. lesson plans, write some papers about social study issues, lots of random stuff about history and learn about special needs in the education system. I am ready to learn, let me tell ya!
Thinking about this term gets to me think about the one class I will be taking right after this term for a week. Then I start to think about living here this summer, which leads me to jobs and money. I need to take one day at a time. I have a lot of exciting things happening this term and this summer that I must not let consume my mind. My focus is the present, each day one day at a time is all I must do. If we live in a time of the future our minds will go crazy!
Back to some things that have recently been going on is that I am working in a kindergarten classroom. Every Tuesday and Thursday I am volunteering in a classroom with 20 adorable 5 and 6 year olds. They make me laugh every day and test my patience more than I thought could. There is one little boy in this class who I think every time I am in there asks if I have a kid at the school, and when I tell him no he asks if I have a baby in my tummy. I have jumped to the conclusion that I am sure he doesn't understand that since I am in school I can not have kids. Which is the truth for me. Sometime it will hit him that I am just helping in his classroom. I always have some sort of story about these kids. This last Thursday my little buddy Rylan noticed the pooh bear shirt and pin I was wearing and told me Spiderman is better. I had to disagree with him and tell him that Pooh Bear is better. He still didn't agree, so this "argument" went on all afternoon. At the end of the day I called him Mr. Pooh Bear and he said, "People don't call me Mr. Pooh Bear." He then called himself Mr. Pooh SpiderMan, cracked me up!
Oh I am sure I will have more to share from this buddy and many others. They brighten my day, and I look forward to working with them each week. More confirmation of how much I can't wait to be in a classroom.
Last weekend I was able to attend an amazing retreat with Wednesday Night Bible Study at Young Life's Breakaway camp in Gearhart, OR. I had such an amazing time. I still feel something missing, that I have been praying for off and on and something I could feel at the retreat, but I know when the time if right things will fall into place. God does amazing works in that way. It is important to remember that everything is in his timing. Not of my own. I can do nothing without him. At this retreat we sang worship songs, prayed together, hung out together, and played games together. Beach volleyball was a highlight in the game area because I had never played before. So much fun! Volleyball was never my "good" sport, as to why I did cross country, but so glad I did. But beach volleyball was something to be silly in! And after that we went to the beach. I missed the beach. I always miss the beach! Can't wait to visit a beach again! So many new friends and memories were made at this retreat! I am so happy God made it in my plan to go, and for everyone else who was there. God makes things happen for a reason, and for each individual to be there was to help us grow stronger and closer.
So many things in these last couple weeks I am thankful for!
Tonight I must close because I can tell my medicine is kicking in and I should sleep!
Oh the wonders sleep can do! Everyone make sure to get enough sleep in their regular sleeping routine. It is important! :)
Good night friends
OH and pray for a quick recovery! Thanks :D
Alyssa
Monday, April 1, 2013
So much meaning!
Here it is Monday. The start to a new term in school. I can't believe yesterday I was in ocean shores, even sitting in church and worshipping my God with my church family. Sunday was Easter. A day to be so thankful for and know that sins have now been forgiven and I live a life of salvation.
This break went by way too quick! Wednesday came and went. I watched my little brother (who is six feet tall) compete in a track meet. This is his first year doing track so I was happy I could see one. Nice to see him and my dad. I also got to see many others at the meet. While I was home I mostly drove around and visited with people. Not really. Relaxing time for my spring break but it was worth seeing people I miss and only see a couple times out of the year. a couple times i went to the school and chatted with a few people picked my brother up from school and drove him home. Friday I got to venture up to Seabrook to see a dear friend who works up there. I first toured the small town of Seabrook which is adorable and chat with my friend. Times don't always work to see the people we want to, but I was more than willing to go see him.and am that way with my friends. Friends are important and if one person doesn't make an effort than when do you see or talk to people? This sort of thing has always been a learning process for me, but it now makes so much more sense. I also got to visit my friend Alexis at the boy baseball game. Missed that girl a lot! And am so excited for her new life and new baby that is on the way :) then I got to chill with my pal Alyssa and her mom cooked dinner and we watched a movie! Miss her too. Everyone lives so far away. I wish I were able to drive and see everyone more than I do. First off I don't always have time and secondly it costs me an arm and a leg :( sad but i won't dwell on it.
The end of my break was nearing and I started to get sad. I tried to make the most out of it I could. Lots of doing things time but I wouldn't trade the time I got to spend with people for anything. Sunday for Easter I went to church. So many people! I didn't even get I say hi to everyone I want! But then it was finally time for me to drive home. Holidays in general are hard for me. And having a five hour car ride by myself didn't make matters better. Holidays I'm typically "alone" I know I have people who care about me, but I don't get those Easter/valentine/4 of July/new years/memorial day baskets or candy or vacations like other people. I'm not mad about that. My life is different than everyone else's. I understand that. Being a 22 year old girl who is surviving this world with God by my side can get scary and lonesome. I'm happy with my life. Of course of have those thoughts of wanting to be done with school or wanting a family. Then I have to think again God has MY life in his hands. He has control. Whatever happens in my life is for a reason and has a purpose. Doesn't mean that life isn't hard for me. That things don't come easy. Holidays are something that I try to look past. At least the ones that don't glorify God.
With all that said I am happy to be back at school. See where life and God takes me. I get to venture into a kindergarten classroom tomorrow and be with kids that love with no strings attached.
Sorry if this was more of a journal entry. That's my life. Take it or leave it. I know some people will truly appreciate hearing what I have to say. (Like my Granada, love you!)
I hope everyone has a blessed week and remembers that God is there in all of our moment of live. Even the tough ones, and with him those moments are made easier.
Night
Alyssa
This break went by way too quick! Wednesday came and went. I watched my little brother (who is six feet tall) compete in a track meet. This is his first year doing track so I was happy I could see one. Nice to see him and my dad. I also got to see many others at the meet. While I was home I mostly drove around and visited with people. Not really. Relaxing time for my spring break but it was worth seeing people I miss and only see a couple times out of the year. a couple times i went to the school and chatted with a few people picked my brother up from school and drove him home. Friday I got to venture up to Seabrook to see a dear friend who works up there. I first toured the small town of Seabrook which is adorable and chat with my friend. Times don't always work to see the people we want to, but I was more than willing to go see him.and am that way with my friends. Friends are important and if one person doesn't make an effort than when do you see or talk to people? This sort of thing has always been a learning process for me, but it now makes so much more sense. I also got to visit my friend Alexis at the boy baseball game. Missed that girl a lot! And am so excited for her new life and new baby that is on the way :) then I got to chill with my pal Alyssa and her mom cooked dinner and we watched a movie! Miss her too. Everyone lives so far away. I wish I were able to drive and see everyone more than I do. First off I don't always have time and secondly it costs me an arm and a leg :( sad but i won't dwell on it.
The end of my break was nearing and I started to get sad. I tried to make the most out of it I could. Lots of doing things time but I wouldn't trade the time I got to spend with people for anything. Sunday for Easter I went to church. So many people! I didn't even get I say hi to everyone I want! But then it was finally time for me to drive home. Holidays in general are hard for me. And having a five hour car ride by myself didn't make matters better. Holidays I'm typically "alone" I know I have people who care about me, but I don't get those Easter/valentine/4 of July/new years/memorial day baskets or candy or vacations like other people. I'm not mad about that. My life is different than everyone else's. I understand that. Being a 22 year old girl who is surviving this world with God by my side can get scary and lonesome. I'm happy with my life. Of course of have those thoughts of wanting to be done with school or wanting a family. Then I have to think again God has MY life in his hands. He has control. Whatever happens in my life is for a reason and has a purpose. Doesn't mean that life isn't hard for me. That things don't come easy. Holidays are something that I try to look past. At least the ones that don't glorify God.
With all that said I am happy to be back at school. See where life and God takes me. I get to venture into a kindergarten classroom tomorrow and be with kids that love with no strings attached.
Sorry if this was more of a journal entry. That's my life. Take it or leave it. I know some people will truly appreciate hearing what I have to say. (Like my Granada, love you!)
I hope everyone has a blessed week and remembers that God is there in all of our moment of live. Even the tough ones, and with him those moments are made easier.
Night
Alyssa
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