Open Book

Hi friends!*Disclaimer: I share things of faith and of who I am. Didn't hold a lot back. Once again more like a journal entry, but I don't have anything to hide!*  I am no longer super congested! After a long week and spending lots of with kinders I finally realized that kids have germs. Regardless of how much you try to get them to wash their hands they still spread germs, thus I was sick for a week. Miserable time, and I don't remember much content that was taught in any of my classes. But I am feeling better and embracing the spring allergy season!

I've had a lot on my mind lately. And along with a lot on my mind I have been busy like normal. You know what though, I embrace it. I wish I could make more time for people. I've been doing the norm lately, going to school, working, young life, Wednesday Night Bible Study, and whatever I can cram into my days. I am starting to feel the long days and the little time I have for other things. My goal as it should be is striving to focus on the present while being led by God in what He has planned for me. My days don't go perfect, my life doesn't go perfect. That is what I love about life. I love that regardless of how I feel or what I do, life is there and so many opportunities come from each day.
Let's start with what went on last week and with my heart. I don't want to leave anything out, but I've gotta start with Saturday night. Saturday the women of bible study put on a evening called night of respect for the men of bible study. I time for the women to serve the men and let them know how much we appreciate them and cherish their friendship. Personally I only know a few of the men. Regardless I love them all like my brothers. The courage and the dedication they have to God is beyond what I have experienced. I am thankful that I get to know so many guys by name and was able to make them feel as special as they all are and have laughs with them. It's truly something special to come together with young adults my age, and serve the Lord and serve each other. To see the love one another has for each other and what we would do for each other. I pray that over this time I have at Western that I could build stronger relationships, and that the names of people I know would grow. Such a time to remember and never forget, and I am looking forward to night of honor! Guys and gals, you all rock!
Up until I'd say Monday I was getting over my sickness. By the grace of God He made me healthy and able to the things I need to do. God lately has really been showing me, that by trusting in Him I have nothing to worry about. And if you know me that is big, because sadly to say I am a worrier. Wish I wasn't, but slowly I am working it. Baby steps of course! With God's love, trust and mercy unimaginable things can happen. I'm human! I struggle! Like everyone else, we all have a story. Mine might be different than yours. I face things everyday, am reminded of things everyday. Things I want to change. Not things I regret, but things that make me not feel as who I am meant to be. I don't like that feeling. And that is something I am willing to work on! With God's help and prayer I am working hard to fix some of the things.
I sit here, listening to Spotify like I always do at my computer.And this song with these lyrics come on, "He's faithful to the end, He's faithful to my heart." So many songs have been speaking to me. I want to obey Him, listen to His will. I have a lot of growing to do. I have a lot more mistakes to make. God is going to bring me through the trials I face. I am never alone. When I feel alone and on the outside of friends, He is there holding my hand. He doesn't want us to feel alone. With that said, I am thankful for Wed Bible Study. I have made so many friends through there, and don't know where I would be without that place. I live in a town, where when I came here I knew no one. I wanted a change. I am ready for another change! I know my change is a change of heart here in Monmouth. To be vulnerable, and willing to have God open my heart to things I may not feel ready for. "Fill me up God."

Wrapping this up, I have been thinking about my birthday. Which is in two weeks. I don't know when I'll stop counting down the days till my birthday, but I guess not yet! Bring on 23! I have been living on my own, supporting myself for almost four years. That is along time to me, while being in school and trying to work and give time to other things. With all that said, I want to be a teacher. In college, and the education major, you are expected to pay literally, hundreds of dollars out of your pocket. I am not one to ask for anything for my birthday. I would rather spend time with people I love. Someone's company is one of the most important things in my life. I have my fair share of wants of course. I also have needs that I pay more attention to.
I need to take a reading test for the third time to get further into my program really before I take any other tests. It is $85. And then I am going to Young Life camp as a leader this summer and thats $150. So if anyone was thinking of getting me anything, contributing in anyway to help me financially would be so appreciated. I am not expecting it of anyone, but I do like cards. And that I do expect ;)

Thanks for reading my life story. Peace out world for the night. Need to go collect myself and finish homework for the night!

Alyssa